The Haunting

Lost in the recesses of your mind

Are all the memories of past you'll find

Buried so deeply to not be known

Painful thoughts that you refuse to own

Unearthed memories constantly taunting

With nowhere to escape all the haunting.

An Old Dream Renewed

Life from childhood took a lot of twist and turns. From childhood fairy tales to adult dreams and happily ever after.

Childhood did not teach me romanticism, but somehow it always was a part of my being. Star gazed with big dreams of tomorrows and all I hoped them to be, I find myself spiraling down a seemingly never-ending tunnel.

Finally the spiraling ends and a new direction emerge. There ahead is light of the path that I now walk upon. Now it weaves in and out and almost seems like you’re going in circles, but finally a point of rest. I gaze above to see the stars and the evening sun, lights my space. I breathe to feel within and dare to dream again. The warmth within, fills my heart in great anticipation. All dreams had ceased to exist, but now they grow with nurturing love.

I find myself revisiting an old dream thought to be forever lost. But now, here and now, today is a brand new day, one of renewing a dream which was no longer. I must only now claim my renewed dream in all its splendor.

Reflections

In a moment of silence, I pause and recollect, all the aspects of my life

I close my eyes as I reflect upon things that brought me pain

A frown came upon my face as I continued to reflect

Then choosing not to stay so quite severe, I reflect upon what made me

proud.

Suddenly, that frown is gone to find a smile that fills me up with joy

I continue to reflect to how I came to be where I am now

But once again that frown crept in and stole my smile, and filled my heart

with sadness.

Then I reflect, how hard it was for me to overcome, so many obstacles

And here came that smile again out from its hiding place

Filling me with enormous gratification for having survived.

The ups, the downs, the ins, the outs, of what life threw at me

It was as if, this was a blueprint of my soul in the mortal sense.

The reflections did mirror my soul, and give a promise of hope for

tomorrow.

I continued to smile as my reflections run my frown away.

The Pursuit of Happiness

I have seen a lot of post that talk about your children, love, faith, pain and trials and tribulations. I only want to say that Lord knows that I have had my share and beyond. There were times I thought I would never survive the pain and suffering, but there was always one constant in my life besides The Almighty, it was the SMILE upon my children's faces, the twinkle in their innocent eyes that beckoned me at my weakest points. They lifted me when hope was gone and pain prevailed. The Creator, Supreme Being, Lord Almighty, knew what he was doing when he made women mothers. He gave us the direct line to HIM! Without that I would certainly not be here telling you this, I would have drowned in my sorrow because I had no one to love me unconditionally, my children! I am here because I am a MOTHER who has made her share of mistakes because after all there is NO play book that outlines exactly what to do at each juncture of their lives. It is a guessing game molded by a lot of things mostly present circumstances and surroundings, and experiences. None of us are perfect and the Lord, Almighty knows and understands that, as he has created us. Therefore, we must NOT be too hard on ourselves when we get it wrong, make a mistake or just screw up, but try to do better with other opportunities given to us such as with our grandchildren. With our grandchildren, we have experienced almost everything from our own, so we are better equipped to share the VERY BEST! That is the cycle that continues how the LOVE CIRCLE keeps growing getting bigger and bigger and knowing no bounds, only LOVE!!!
To all of you out there, being a mother is my greatest achievement, 1st only to be a grandmother. All praises due unto The Lord for allowing me the opportunity! Without that initial LOVE, I would have ceased to exist. That LOVE gave me strength to survive if only for my children even when the pain was unbearable. I gained strength from The Lord through the gifts/blessings he gave me, my children. Now I am able to continue my pursuit of happiness and I have found it in my grandchildren, my children and my new life that The Lord has blessed me. Thank you!

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Looking For One's Self

It is without a doubt a change phenomenon of “looking for one’s self”. Most of us will spend a lifetime never knowing that we should seize every opportunity to venture on such a journey. That journey in which we embark may unfold secrets that have affected us our whole lives that we never understood until the truth be told. Other times it’s like “catch 22”, you’re damned if you do and damned if you don’t. Well, I don’t know about you, but I would rather have all the facts no matter how ugly they may be, so I have the opportunity to put them in their proper prospective and hopefully alleviate the “skeletons”.

I know that the journey I have been on during my life has absolutely been like a roller coaster ride. Scare the crap out of you and at the same time get your adrenalin flowing to the point you are almost rejuvenated and prepared to survive the torturous ride again. Now, mind you, I am by no means a roller coaster ride lover. In fact, I will not go on it again. But, I did learn that despite my fears, I survived and was stronger for the experience.  Here for all who are challenging the journey, just remember this:   

               

Blessings By Shereema Ibrahim, 6/9/05

Hidden behind every door is a blessing
Around every corner is a blessing, At every crossroad we choose our blessing
We go about our lives struggling to make sense, The everyday occurrences of
Getting up..........washing up, Getting dressed...........doing our hair
Walking............talking..........thinking............breathing
In and of themselves, they are each a blessing, Sometimes the path we’re on, chosen or forced upon
We struggle through, Pain............anger...........rage
And then hopelessness, Surrounded by absolute darkness
There is always light, The choice is ours; it’s called “Free Will”
A blessing in itself, To fight.........be strong.........to rise above
To see beyond the trees, To learn..............to grow
Teach others what we’ve come to know
Use our struggle..........pain...............and agony
To turn things all around
Reap the blessings of your survival, Then be blessed for doing so.